I can hear some of you saying that I shouldn’t be that dramatic, but I can’t help it. Perhaps its not so bad as to need a tombstone (okay, its not that bad at all), but knowing the date your life is going to change forever is like knowing when you’re going to die; nothing can make you ready for it.
I had an appointment at with the clinic on Monday. Its taken two days just to settle myself to the point that I can talk about what we discussed. May 4th 2012.
Some of you may know that ‘full term’ for a lady pregnant with twins is 37 weeks, not 40. That means my due date is less than a week from today. Of course my babies can arrive any time they feel like between now and the actual date, but I now have an appointment at the hospital for when I’m to be induced.
The date my life is going to change forever. Again.
May 4th 2012.
As if finding out I was pregnant wasn’t quite enough, the fact that I’ll soon be able to hold my babies in my arms, see their faces and touch their skin is becoming more and more of a reality. In fact, it could very well be as soon as next Friday… 4th May….
I feel really, really strange. In fact, I feel like its knowing when my life is going to end. And its not like that at all. Its knowing when the most incredible thing in the world is going to happen to me; me who probably doesn’t even deserve it. To begin with… who didn’t even want it! I’m going to be a mother. I’m going to have the chance to do for two young lives what my mother has done for me since the day I popped out of her. The sense of responsibility, excitment and fear that comes with that is unlike anything I have ever known. Nothing is going to top it. Ever.
I’m not really sure what else to say. I don’t have the words for it, which, seems to make this blog post somewhat redundant, but its not. Basically, what I’m saying is, come Friday 4th May, I’ll be heading into hopsitial to meet my babies. Blog posts will continue as normal since they’re all scheduled up, including those from the kind people who have been good enough to provide guest posts for me (remember if you would still like to contribute, I’d be honoured and grateful!).
I’ll make updates as often as is possible/feasible to keep you in the loop. I want to share this with you guys as much as I want to share with my growing family. Then, when things calm down, I’ll let you know that too and come off scheduled posts.
Oh… and I nearly forgot; while its not quite my birthday, if the procedure goes as quickly as I might hope, then my babies will be born on Star Wars Day. How awesome is that?!