So… you know when you have something you want to share but can’t make yourself do it? You know when you think about it for ages and ages and ages and then finally decide that its time to share? But then when you get to that point you realise ‘eeeep, nuuu way!!!’
…Well that was about a week ago now.
However, I think, after pasting the news to my (personal) Facebook, I really couldn’t hold back any longer. In fact, some of you may already know. Those of you who don’t… well… sit down… take a deep breath, eh?
Okay….
I’m pregnant.
Woo! Fuck, there I said it. No falling mountains or hurricanes laden with death and destruction.
Phew!
Whoa, whoa, wait, who said you could start hopping up and down? I’m not done! Let me finish…!
I’m pregnant. With twins. Identical twins.
Thaaaaaaaaat’s right. I warned you!
Yes… that is the news I’ve been sitting on since my LARP and the news that has had me running back and forth between floods of tears spurred by terror and gleeful giggling that makes my stomach muscles ache.
Pregnant. Twins. Due in May.
Holy shit.
Needless to say I’m frightened out of my mind. Needless to say I’m excited. Needless to say I’m an emotional roller coaster, one that I can’t slow or stop (no matter how much I need to) and that everything I knew or planned or wanted has changed dramatically in the last three months. Everything that is, except writing. Its been the one consistent constant. Not that I was able to write much in the beginning of October and everything I was doing took an incredible nose dive into the abyss of ‘my-life-is-over-how-am-I-supposed-to-write-you-fooooool!!!’
However, friends far and near have helped me through. My partner has been amazing and even though I’m not in the least bit ready, every time I look at the scan photos and see those massive twin heads, facing each other and practically holding hands through the murk that is my womb, I can’t help but think… I’ll be okay. Just.
And no… I’m not kidding. 
Congrats. I’d go insane. Oh, and use the F bomb now–cuz in two years, they’ll repeat every bad word you don’t want them to learn, LOL
That’s actually going to be a mega tricky part of all this; moderating my language for ‘family appropriateness.’ Heh, we’ll have to see how I do.
I don’t usually do this, but I’m following this conversation because I’m a twin, and a mom, and a writer. I have a post on my blog, Writing Between the Lines, that is titled “The ‘S’ Word,” and it deals with that very subject. If you have time, you might take a look at it. My two kids, now mostly grown, are the best thing that ever happened to me. Even better, I gave birth to my own critique group. They are both writers now, too. I wish you all the luck in the world!
Hehee, great post, thanks for the heads up.
And its lovely to hear that both of your children are writers! I’m already starting to wonder what my pair will be.
The first year of their life you will be completely exhausted. Kiss sleep good-bye. Kiss sanity good-bye. But, in the end, it’s all worth it. I love my boys and there is no greater joy than being a momma.
Heh, I’m making myself feel better by saying that sleep and sanity hinder the creative process. :p That may well be a complete fib, but it will be interesting to see what comes out of my head if I do manage to scribble down a sentence or two.
You’ll find the time to write. It’s what writers do. We start having withdrawals if we miss a few days. :0)